~ s i G h ~
Saturday, June 24th, 2006sigh…wat i am afraid of is really coming..july / august..maybe tis is wat we call fate in life..something sticks to ur life since u were born..wat simp told me is really coming true..i din wanna trust him 100% because i don wanna let my fate falls on some tarot cards tales..i don wanna go thru a repetition of year 2005 again…i don wanna go thru all the pains i once had anymore…it’s really enough..i can’t bear it if it ever strikes on me again…will i ever get to stand up again? i don’t know…
one day, i was working in 1u n i had nothing to do..i walked into the mPH n took a very cheap astrology booklet to read on my sign..it seems like the astrology agreed on wat simp has told me…something is really coming..something tat can/can’t be stopped…something tat is going to turn everything all around..i knew exactly wat is coming..but i don’t have the guts to face all those..can i choose not to accept it? y must it strike on me again? didn’t i have enough of it last year? i’m enjoying my life, wit wat i have, wit my loved one, my frens and family..n y does it have to haunt me to take them all away??
one day i was so damn bored, doing nothing at home, i flipped back all the cleo mags archive..it was all going well, until i found the dec issue..n to my surprise..it was wat simp told me again…at tat instant..i couldnt think..i don’t know wat i can believe…at that moment my confidence dropped to the zero limit…
well…the fate is in my hand..i don’t wanna put them on some other ppl’s saying or tales…i will fight my own fate tis time..i won’t let myself fall down to the deep dark hole anymore..
